For me at least. Since the last thing I posted I haven’t written a damn thing. But what I have been doing is going out and taking pictures, doing watercolors, painting D&D models, and playing with polymer clay. It seems that to write, I have to wait for autumn and spring. I don’t know if it has to do with being bipolar, if being able write is one side of the coin and visual arts are the other. Never to twain shall meet. But, although it is a bit frustrating, I do keep getting ideas for what I plan to write – whenever that time comes.
I went through a period of almost ten years where I didn’t write at all. I lost my writing partner and no on else was the least bit interested in reading my work or listening to my ideas. I got very downhearted. Then I made new friends, my fiance writes and encourages me to write and to become a better writer. We’ve spent hours when we were supposed to be sleeping just coming up with new ideas for our worlds. I started writing again last year around NANOWRIMO and wrote at a furious pace for awhile. I didn’t win but I got all my ideas down and I’ve got a beginning, middle, and ends all planned out. However as soon as I had some people read it they informed me that I’d basically have to rewrite it. It took a long time to figure out what I did wrong, and 10,000 words became less than 4,000. It all makes a lot more sense, but it’s also disheartening. I decided to take a break and focus on art, and I’m pretty happy with the decision. Now it can just settle in the back of my mind and when I go back to it I’ll be happier with what I’m putting down.
So here is a bit of what I’ve been working on, until the writing bug bites me again.
I’ve been waiting for a long time for some of my pieces to be out of the kiln since the woman I’m paying to fire everything has her own work for the Tamarack and the work of her students ahead of me. All that has come out so far since they are just bisqued are some jewelry and four statues. One of the statues broke in the kiln and broke some more once I got it home. I’d expected that though because I didn’t do a good job. I want to redo it later in the style of the others. I don’t have those painted yet so I’m just going to post what I’ve got painted! I don’t have a pendant/bead tree for the kiln so it would cost a lot of money to glaze them since they’d all have to be lain flat so I’m making do with acrylics.
This is the first piece I did in the jewelry and Its all mine! The color isn’t very good in the picture but it is red with a brown background. It’s gilded with gold acrylic and around the edge where you can’t see is copper leaf. It’s inspired by Fatal Frame 2: Crimson Butterfly which is my favorite video game. I have a lot of stories about that game but I also have two crimson butterflies tattooed on my shoulder it means so much to me.
These are purple with gold accents and are a commission from my boss for her daughters.
I made these as sort of friendship pendants, not sure if anyone will want them though!
This is a Gemini bracelet for my friend Amber, I think I’ll tie leather strips to the sides and add a gold clasp.
I’m really pleased with how these turned out, although I sort of wish I’d bought silver paint for the blue one instead of gold. I have a few more of these to paint so I’ll get some silver before I do those.
I’m not so sure about this one, ha! It has a gold border and brown background and you can’t tell but it has a copper body and gold wings, ears, and claws. It looks a lot better in person than it does in a picture.
Anyway I’m really happy with these, I did four others that I’m not as thrilled with so unless I figure out how to salvage them I’m not going to bother posting them!
I haven’t been able to write a lot lately, but I’ve been doing a little worldbuilding and writing little notes here and there. This afternoon I collected all the little scraps of paper that have been floating around on my desk and in my wallet and put them in little note cards in Scrivener and after having a really cool moment a bit ago I’m super pumped and excited to start writing again. Too bad I’m super tired and just want to curl under the covers and go to sleep at the same time. This usually happens when I lost momentum, I’ll lose heart and sort of linger over what I’ve written and start to second guess myself. Then something wonderful or interesting can happen and it will all come back why I love writing so much! I went too many years without doing it because I convinced myself I could never finish anything. This. This I’m going to finish!
Tomorrow will be a writing day, somewhere in there I also have to work on making presents and going to the grocery store but mostly I really want to start typing!
Here is a little drawing I did of Marten and Amba a while back, with a little help from my friend Jindalay, she is a much better artist than me and drew out the poses for me!